Friday, June 5, 2009
Sigh, I'm back...Again, I'm lonely, and feeling depressed...
Eventhough I went out with Sam and her BF plus Celine, Julia, Hannah...
Long time since I've seen Celine...
But it feels like I haven't seen my crush(NOT Celine, someone else) in ages...
Although I have her pic in my phone...
I just want to look into those soft, caramel coloured eyes and feel my heart melt...
I really, really, really miss her alot...
Now, I'm hoping that her teacher choose her to go for the NDP thing last minute...
Sigh...
Tried drowning myself just now, in the swimming pool...
Each time I came close, I hear her voice telling me not to, and to think of my loved ones...
Heck, she's one of 'em, so yea, didn't drown...
Or else, I wouldn't be here posting right?
Anyway, I tried smsing, but there isn't any reply...
Twice, I sent an sms and awaited a reply for like a few hours...
One in the morning, and one after I finished swimming...
I hope she is either not able to sms cause of a camp, training of she ain't in the country...
But she could've atleast told me right?
Well, I'm still worried...
Damn worried that I may never get a reply from someone I love...
Akmal
I feel guilty and remorseful because I feel that I've made you sad cause I went out with them...
Please forgive me...
I can't cope without you...
Every moment is another painful one without you around...
But everytime I go online, I hope you're there, so I can talk to you...
Sigh...
You're really angry aren't you?
I apologise...
I'm so very sorry...
7:00 PM By Athrun988
