Well, my week has not been going that well, apart from the return of the Cambodia Team, progress on the CCA recruitment fair performance, passing out as an NCO, this week totally sucked. I got stabbed in the back. Again. So, if you do happen to see any vulgar words in this post, I'm sorry. Sheesh, sometimes, love sucks. Sometimes life sucks. But as my sister said to me; You still have to breathe every breath, live every second and control every tear. The easy way out is never the best way out. Salutations to you, sis. Since I'm like thanking people here, I'd like to thank everyone who cared when I was down. Aye?

If you wonder why my writing is not chronogical or is jumpy, I'm trying very hard not to slam several people on the net right now. Control the anger. Always control the anger. Tomorrow is countdown day. The day after that, is the new year. What are your resolutions? Care to share?

I miss Auntie Jill's spaghetti Bologna...

Today, I saw many celebrating by holding barbecues. But I wonder, how do they celebrate Christmas in the less fortunate countries? Hopefully the Cambodia missionary team brought some light into the fortunate and the less-fortunate's lives.

Today, gifts were exchanged and and wishes said. Every year, the same thing happens. How about the many who aren't able to celebrate with their loved ones? Like me? Or those who are just away from their families? To many, Christmas is just another public holiday which you get presents. Not many people really get the essence of the Christmas spirit. For those who think; 'What the heck? Why are you posting about this?' Here's your answer: we take celebrations such as these that can bring us closer to one another for granted.

I'm not going to type about the Christmas spirit, but my friend Elaine and that special someone knows it very well. Do visit their blogs when you're free. To the Cambodia team, if you're reading this, Merry CHRISTmas. We can't wait to welcome you back on Monday. To the rest of us in Singapore, lets keep the Cambodia team in prayer that they'll always be safe and sound. That they have learnt new lessons about life. And that they'd come back even more mature!!

I'll leave you all with this.

It's a quote from my old post, but obviously, I've edited it.

'We left immature and ungrateful.

We learnt the lesson of appreciation.

We lived the hard life.

We came back mature and stronger then ever.'

Boy, do I miss her already. I bet her parents miss her even so. Well, I hope she remembered what I told her just now.

'Don't worry about Singapore. Forget all about Singapore for these nine days. But don't forget your parents, me and Mark. Constantly keep in prayer. And for once, have fun! Let us do the worrying. Since its your first trip out of Singapore without your parents, I don't want you to be sad. Instead, I'd rather you enjoy the experience!'

She's probably having fun right now. I remember the days when I was overseas without my parents, in a whole different world. I didn't think about my parents, or Singapore, till the last three days. Its not that I don't care, but thinking about them would make me homesick, and I told them not to think too much about me, because I don't want them to be sad upon my departure. So, hopefully, she is having her own great experiences. And if she is reading this, you know I care, you know we care. But just don't be sad just thinking of us. Have fun! But don't forget us either!

To the rest of us in Singapore, lets keep the Cambodia team in our prayers. Pray that they're safe, and protected by God always.

I'll always be there for you. I promise.

The guys came over to watch soccer this morning at 0200hrs. And I've been devoid of sleep for 24 hrs, minimum.

Spending time with my friends was a great idea. Got to know them better, and got to keep myself occupied too. In the end, we decided to slack in my room a little because Barcelona was getting their ass kicked all over the place, Internazionale wasn't playing like an international team, and Arsenal was totally pathetic. Haha, totally not their day. Besides, I learnt some new skills for soccer after being coached by my brothers. I feel ready to rock the court!!

Oh, I ran out of tongue cleaners. Crap.

All because of the foolish mistake of one man. ME.

I forgot her birthday. Of all things to forget, one bloody date, which in effect ended our friendship. I'm not saying its not my fault, because it is. This was the last time I'd be able to prove to her that I'm different from the past. To prove to her that I'm a better person now. But this was not to be. Maybe we're not meant for each other. You call it fate. I call it God's plan for me.

I hope you're reading this. You don't have to tag. Or say that you've read this. But I just want you to know that you were all I had to live for. The reason I changed for the better. The reason I tried to be nicer to others. The reason I accepted the fact that I'm not perfect. It's all because of you. I attempted to be better for you. But I failed. I'm sorry.

Now, our friendship is still in the balance. If you wont accept me in the future. Or like me anymore. Please, all I'm asking for is that we'd still stay friends. Forgive me.

To a brighter future ahead of us. I dedicate Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson. God bless you. Last note: you were the bes companion I had in school. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you. Thank you, Kimberly.

As you can see, my blogskin is now changed!

Nah, I didn't create it. Nor am I feeling down. I just thought that a little simplicity would make my blog better.

Well, I'm gonna check New Moon later today! And I gotta get ready already. SO, bye!

Akmal

Haha, I've got a good mind to change my blogskin...

Anyway, I'll be getting rid of the Plurk column. And you guys can look forward to several new columns too!!

Right. Hmm... Oh yes, my daddy finally got Singtel MIO!

Now I can watch soccer, and documentaries!! What a blessing! Also, I got a new router!!

Now, it can connect to several computers and its faster too!

YEAH!!

Haha, well, gotta choose what to wear tomorrow. I'll probably dress up nicely for you guys!

Akmal