Wake up damn it! Wake up!

How many disappointments do you have to go through until you finally realize she doesn't even like you a single bit? She may not even consider you her brother seriously. Or worse, talks bad about you behind your back. You want to trust her, love her, adore her. You even give her your best. But does she care? I doubt so. I don't think she even cares. Just because you have a sprained ankle, and she asked once, doesn't mean she's gonna pamper you like some little bitch!!

So, Akmal, wake up and see reality, the world isn't a happy place. That's why we were born into this world crying, because it is full of pain. And you're just going through a rough patch of life. I know, as your heart, that you've given her you all. And you want her to do the same. But you can't expect that! No one will ever give you their all. And if you think many girls like you, or adore you, think again. they're just probably just saying so just to make you feel better.

Look at yourself, you're not good looking, only above-average. You're not physically fit. Just because you play sports regularly and is good at the sports you play doesn't make you fit, nor skilled. Yeah, you're good in NCDCC, but to what extent? And just because you had a sprained ankle doesn't mean you're gonna be treated better or something. Some may look up to you, but for how long? And how much?

You posted about nobility, great decisions, responsibility and even the unfairness of the world. But of all you've posted, have you thought about what others think about you? Hopefully they respect you for all the things you've said that is acceptable and respected. Wise maybe. Then again, you also post about other's negative points, and never yours.

Jealousy, envy, anger, frustration. All these are everyday feelings, and even occasionally makes you sad. Others also feel the same way what. Why do you make those minute feelings into life controlling facts that eventually destroy life and bring you to depression? Don't be a loser. Seriously, nobody like to live and work with a loser. Yeah, ok, you have true feelings for that girl. But does she share the same for you too?

A friend once told you that you should not fall for someone who wouldn't catch you. Seems true now? Should you fall for her, would she catch you before you hit the ground? Or would she let you fall and injure yourself? Questions are hard to answer, but you can always depend on God to help you, Akmal. Remember, as lonely as you feel, as rejected as you are treated, there is always someone out there that cares. Especially God. So, if you feel down and sad, you can always pray and seek guidance from the one above.

Maybe someday, that girl would realize what she has done to you, and how much it hurts to see her taking you for granted. Because you have never taken her nor any of your friends for granted. Especially her. Hopefully, she'd understand what you are going through now, and help guide you with the help of God. Hopefully someday you'd be able to call upon her as not your friend, nor sister, but a more closer calling. So, if you want to really live, wake up and see the world as it is. WAKE UP!